Thru the hardest part of life.......

I think this is be the last time I'd be blogging with this theme!

I still remember the day, July17th 2006 when they announced my name, which I recall to be one of the most wonderful days of my college life-- I had my first job! Congratulations pouring in from all possible directions, tears in my eyes, excited and self satisfied!

One year, since the memorable day, life seems to have taken a twist. Friends have seperated, Families meet less often than before, coffee seems to be quencing thirst, 14 to 15 hours of rigorous work, no time for absolutely anything in the world, advent of scary moments where our job is at stake, see nothing in the world apart from computer screens, friends (who were everyday visitors to your house during college) appear only on messangers, others who are with you seem to have changed - all involved with their own work and responsibilities.

Does this change affect everyone? When I ask myself this, I realise it really does not. But I consider it to be the hardest phase in my entire life!

When I boarded the train on 24th June 2007, I had an adventure in mind - an adventure to cherish, a new life to lead. With tears, i bid adieu to everyone I knew. I called my job as my new home!

Now, I return to Bangalore every weekend hoping to meet all of my friends - sadly everyones not here! Its hard to say goodbye to people you are the closest to, but harder to stay without thinking of them. You think of all the great moments that got you together - the times we fought, the times we laughed until our stomachs hurt, the times when an sms was life itself, when one missed the other when only one turned up at college, all the movies we watched, our class trips, our adventure! Given a chance, I would still love to be a student where life is easy and so much fun!

When nothing seems to be going your way at work, you get so frustrated and hope someone would come, pat your back and comfort you ! You look around and you see nobody - simply because no one really has time for anything - forget comforting! You might have a tear rolling down your cheek but quickly tend to wipe it off so that the other person does not see it.

You have seen more of business meetings, teleconferences than a movie in recent months. You have probably learnt the real definition of yoga and meditation after you have joined work but sadly have no time for that at all.

When you are just about to leave work, you realise that your manager needs you to finish some last part of the code. You have no choice but to sit and finish.

Chatting with friends over phone has become a mere fantasy. Everyone is at different geographical locations with different days and nights! We will probably meet each other only at reunions that happen some time in future!

No more mass bunking, no more running behind some one for more marks, no more of what we termed as "life". I get pretty emotional whenever I leave back for a whole week of work every sunday evening. The only satisfaction I take with me is - 5 days later, I am back here!

I think this has been the shortest of all my blogs, but its something I wanted to write for a very very long time!


This is where life stands, between walls of good and bad. The closer you stand towards one side, the more of it you are going to cherish!

A Nostalgic drive through the best years of life!!

Hey people, I know I hardly update my blog. This is because I wait on to get the best topic to make the read memorable. I do not even remember writing the last one, but when I realised I had my next one coming, I had to write in my 3rd blog!

I guess the previous two blogs were filled in with humour(as what i would call it) and some real time experience that has happened. But this blog has all the feelings got out of me from deep within. As you read, you will know that life has something known as "another life" embedded deep in it!

Read on and you will know.......


There isn't gonna be a day where u wake up at 8:00 and say "Oh shit! I am late!", get ready and rush.

There isn't gonna be a day where u come early to class just to start occupying the last benches and watch all the late comers curse u for making them sit in the first rows!

There isn't gonna be a day where u slowly take ur cell out in all the restricted regions of college just to read a message saying "Hi" from another friend in an Engg college!

There isn't gonna be a day where u shout "Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrrrr" or "Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmm" as soon as they enter class just to say you are bored and wanna go!

There isn't gonna be a day where a large group surrounds the HOD's room for the simple reason of "mass bunking" the previous day!

There isn't gonna be a day where u rush to Avenue road to buy your books a week before ur internals!

There isn't gonna be a day where you will go to a girl and ask "Hey, can you come out for a cup of coffee with me ?"

There isn't gonna be a day where u are held at the gate for wearing someone else's ID card!

There isn't gonna be a day where u worked all you butt out to get a fest underway!

There isn't gonna be a day where u hide ur mobile in socks just to prevent it from being confiscated during a surprise check!

There isn't gonna be a day where u sit behind someone who is tall just to read an interesting novel in class!

There isn't gonna be a day where u slog the entire night just to get a 35 in the next days exam!

There isn't gonna be a day where u just cant get access to www.vtu.ac.in on the day of the result!

There isn't gonna be a day where you realise u have cleared a paper u least expected to and fail a paper u again least expected to! And come out to your friend and say "Dude! I pppppppppppppaaaaaaaassssssssssssssssssssseeeeeeeeeeedddddddddddddd!!!!!!!!!

There isn't gonna be a day where u go out with friends to every hangout place possible!

There isn't gonna be a day where the entire class goes out on a trip just to be with each other all the time!

There isn't gonna be a day where u cheat in the lab just to get those beautiful words -"Output seen" on your sheets.

There isn't gonna be a day where 70 students get attendence when the class strength is just 35!

There isn't gonna be a day where u realise that u have ur very first job in hand no matter how much it pays!

No more late night movies with friends, no more suspensions, no more crushes and gossips, no more fighting, no more seminars, no more birthday bums, no more xerox notes!!


I dunno if i have to write anything more than this. It just is another phase of life which becomes a life in itself again and stays with us all through our lives and has probably given us the best 4 years of our lives!

We all shall part... Not the same groups anymore... We do not know when we shall ever meet again.. But our hearts will always abide by us until death conquers us!



As someone clearly said "Engineering is like a public loo. People outside would wanna get in and people inside would wanna get out!" would probably have to re phrase his sentences soon.

A time worth remembering.......

Come what may... 1 out of every 5 in India go through Engineering. So just imagine how many Engineers the country produces every year!

Every graduated "engineer" now needs a job and if he is lucky, then a job in hand is assured in the pre-final year or else its on the road job hunting! Looking deep into how it works (well not real deep) because it is very simple to analyse the status of Engineers graduating today, it can be seen that not even 1% of their total population is fit to take up a job! This is true and has been rightly quoted several times by the top CEO's.

Apart from the point, I would want to include a small deviation from what is mentioned above-- To know the status of an Engineering student during the time of placement in the pre final year.

The mood and the ambience first establishes itself well and spreads on slowly 2 months prior to the first company's visit. We amateurs are so excited that we tend to gather information from every source possible (be it television, word from someones mouth, internet, telephone, etc etc) about every possible requirement during this time. The most hillarious thing that happens is everytime we hear something, it seems new and everyone has his or her own "depth of analysis" in the issue. This is just a foundataion of the actual reality.

Time passes by with these so called "ideologies" of each individual. A month more to go and this is when the fun part starts! "I got all the question papers of Infosys", says one while the other exclaims saying "I heard IBM's written round was really bad!!" Several people with the same kind of plan now start forming "groups" which tend to grow rather gradually than fast as each one has his own idea! The first thing we hear as a first morning prayer in class would be just this! Heads coming together to solve a puzzle involving some train and bus or the hands of a clock or some antediluvian question. Looking at this, another set of people join the discussion (rather confusion) to make the question even sour. Everyone needs a job and it so seems that each individual tends to test the other persons knowledge rather than improvise oneself!! And at the end of an "eventful discussion", one proudly says "The answer is definitely 35 kmph. It cant be proven wrong!! The solution is wrong!" Now people wonder whether the answer given is wrong, simply because the person said so or if there is a printing mistake involved! Therefore the final conclusion is "The answer is wrong" without even trying to analyse the entire problem. Everyone in the group nod their heads when one agin starts off from the beginning saying "Hey but the length of the train....." while another interrupts saying "It crosses this bridge man!" while the "not so intelligent" people in the group just nod along the entire discussion just to get a whole lot of attention! So the 35kmph is proven wrong and now the next namoona says its 45kmph. So the idea was to prove the first person was wrong! Goodness!


Now the most intelligent of the group will be that person who proved maximum of the concluded answers wrong and henceforth will be declared as the first student to be selected! The dumbest being the person who concluded the solution with the first answer!
These discussions take place over and over again and the remaining students start getting tensed wondering why they arn't able to form groups of the same kind!

Few more days pass and the first list of companies is out. Tension begins to grip every student tight. All you can hear is "Hey dude, mail me all the questions man" or "Listen, how many do you think they are likely to recruit?" or " Hey I dont remember a word in 8086 man, what if they screw me up?" and so on. While the some "already felt they are placed people" seem rather cool and say "Chill man, I am sure they will not bother too much." Various training programmes are introduced and now the new set of dialogues are "Man ,what a GD!" or "That was good. I feel so confident now."

And finally the day arrives. With every other dude visting the temple before entering the hall seems nervous. The pre-placement talk is on and everyone is excited. A few more hours and they could have this job!! The few "I have too much attitude" people say " What the hell! This company pays so low man... I will not write!" and go. The talk is now done and pin drop silence surrounds the hall when the first round insructions are given. "Ladies and gentlemen, your first round will be a written round followed by a break. Following this will be a list of all short listed candidates for the Group Discussion which will be followed by another break and then another list of all short listed candidates will be displayed entering the interview round. I would like to wish students all the very best."

Students are placed in rooms for their written round and each one whispers in a short prayer to himself. Each one seems so desperate!

This is one point in time everyone seems to remember. At the end of the day, students are placed and it is a whole different feeling getting placed even before you are done with Engineering and at the end of it you feel " Oh this wasn't hard, Its no big deal!"


When you know your goal, go for it
When you know your in trouble, face it
This is what makes us complete!

Where does this journey take me?

Its 2 in the morning but still not asleep. I lie on bed trying to read this amazing novel making every minute more intense. As time ticks I realise that we have a lab session and my works incomplete! Ah! no big deal.... after all its just my routine to get up early that day and fill pages. Thinking about it I go to bed at 3 hoping to get up at 6. The damn alarm never rings at 6... manage to get up at 7 ! phew! Even this makes me stay cool. Still half asleep I manage to get my record and some lousy pen lying beside it and begin entering values, each seeming unexpectionally new! Realise its 7:45 and I need to leave to college with my record work half complete! Just before leaving ,I glance through the class schedule and realise that i cant write in any of the classes before lab without my book getting confiscated..Ha who cares anywayz??

As I begin looking for the bike key, several curses start boggling in my head while huntin for it. Various thoughts start popping in my head including "did u steal my key?" just to realise its lying under the blanket on my bed.. damn all this had to happen today! Within seconds of grabbing the key and putting on my uniform (which includes my great identity card, my glasses , my watch and a couple of inkless pens) , I rush towards the bike just to realise I am out of fuel! Oh man !! Its 8:10 and all I hear is mom saying "You deserve this!"--solid encouragement! And now wallet gets empty as well.. I need to drop by at the atm and get my bike refueled and realise that the pointer is just above the red... and thank myself for buying this bike! Ok, off I go through the green parks of ISRO layout to enter the diseased part of Bangalore!

First stop-Kadrenahalli junction traffic signal where all the bus and lorry drivers assume to be the new traffic constables of the city making their own set of rules!According to official calculations I need to take 5 min to get here and 20 seconds at this damn signal! Its finally green and as I zip past huts, I just realise the c++ lecturer will not let me in beyond 8:30.. crap!
Second stop-The beloved DG petrol bunk where traffic is hell.. generally wait for 2 signals but in very critical situations like these none! Breaking all rules and nearly banging into everyone on the road fly past the "100 ft ring road" cursing every bus driver who re-designs every bus stop possible on the road!
Third stop-The food world junction where the road becomes the craters identical twin! With every other goof riding even on the footpath and honking for no reason at all, I realise its 8:25! Shit just 5 more minutes!
Fourth (and hopefully the final) stop: The HP Petrol station where the BMP designers have displayed maximum intelligence of setting up a speed breaker just after the signal. This junction is taken care of by some traffic constable who seems to live on bribes scratching himself at every body part possible in public! OMG... what life! Three more minutes to go and this dumb looking police guy lazily lifts one finger letting us go straight to meet that hump! Curses! Cant people have more sense? Finally come towards college where the auto drivers display their road sense accompanied by whistling of the security guards! Now this makes my day!
Without another word I realise I am late... I see a couple of my classmates rushing to class... join them and enter class... realise lecturer is in a good mood and lets us in! Oh damn! The record is incomplete! Idea strikes! Will miss the next two classes and finish them.... So I miss the next two and finally finish the record just to get every damn filled page signed!

This incident took place almost every week until I got attendance shortage in the two classes I missed! Never mind... I started missing the c++ classes now and I dont really know how long this new plan is gonna last.... where am I going with this?

The most interesting part is that I never realise or learn from these incidents... probably because I realise the saying "All is well that ends well!" far too well!

"If u say ur defeated ur gone... if u still have hopes of a man coming alive after hez dead, ur stupid... if u realise u still have a point to prove in a confused life... ur worth a zillion dollars!"